Ejen Hampeh

"..you'll never know how much you hurt me
stay can't you see
that i wanna fall from the stars
straight into your arms
i.. i feel you
i hope you comprehend.."

We were approaching my office when the song was on air. Most of the time when I heard the song, it will remind me of someone. Someone who used to love me. I don't know if he is still in love with me now, but I hope not. He told me that the song depicted his feelings for me then, when we were having a phone conversation and the song was on air.

And when I heard the song this morning, I told An, "Ni lagu Aziz ni". We both smiled. "Kita kena ada satu lagulah. So that bila you dengar lagu tu, you ingat kita", replied An. Sweet.

"Dia jelah yang rasa macam tu kat I kan, tapi I idak le rasa camtu", I added. "Tapi tulah kan. Sapa soh lebih-lebih. I takat nak kawan je ok, tapi bila jadik problem lain, padan le muka dia kan.. Kawan pun dah tak leh".

"Nape dia tak suka kat wife dia eh?", asked An. "Entah". It's my turn to reply. "I guess masa dia baruuuu je kawen, then dapat tau yang I dah break up dengan my ex. Tu yang rasa terkilan kot tak dapat I". It was just my guess.

"Yang susah, I gaklah kan.. Dia dah lah ejen insurance I. Padan le muka I. Dah tak leh tanya pasal insurance I dengan dia". Yeah, he is my insurance agent. I signed up with him when we were at 'just friends' basis, when no feelings were involved in the transaction. And now, after the incident where 'just friends' turned out to be a situation where his wife abused me verbally and via sms, I had totally stoppped any correspondence with him. As a matter of fact, the correspondence had stopped long before the abuse came. And now, even when I have any queries about my insurance, I have to wonder on my own. Contacting him is something that I really hesitate to do. The only time I contacted both the wife and him was before my wedding, inviting them both to the wedding. And that was it.

"Memang le nasib I. Insurance agent camtu, unit trust agent pun lebih kurang sama je tau!". We both laughed. An is my unit trust agent. But, a very lazy one.

"Tapi, I lah untung", An said while laughing. "Sebab?" asked I. "Sebab, I dapat meniduri you! Hahahahahahaha.." Both gelak tak hingat.

Babeng.

Hampeh.

The moral behind the story? Takde moral punya ejen-ejen aku! Kekekekeke...!!

Angah


..the whole lyrics of the song..

St*rs - Simply R*d

Anyone who ever held you
Would tell you the way I'm feeling
Anyone who ever wanted you
Would try to tell you what I feel inside
The only thing I ever wanted
Was the feeling that you ain't faking
The only one you ever thought about
Wait a minute cant you see

That I
I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I.. I feel you
I hope you comprehend

For the man who tried to hurt you
He's explaining the way I'm feeling
For all the jealousy I caused you
States the reason why I'm trying to hide
As for all the things you taught me
It sends my future into clearer dimensions
You'll never know how much you hurt me
Stay a minute cant you see

That I
I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I.. I feel you
I hope you comprehend

Too many hearts are broken
A lovers promise never came with a maybe
So many words are left unspoken
The silent voices are driving me crazy
As for all the pain you caused me
Making up could never be your intention
You'll never know how much you hurt me
Stay cant you see

That I
I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I.. I feel you
I hope you comprehend