Hhhmmm.. apa nak tulis ek? Kalau dibiar tak bertulis lelama, nanti jadik kejung semula blog ni. So I should write something even if it means nothing ;)
Lately ni aku selalu rasa macam mati makin hampir. I don't know why. It's just the feeling. Bila aku tengok parents aku, especially Abah, and thinking about my PokDe who passed away last month when he was a year younger than Abah reminded me that I might not have that much time with Abah. Well, we all might not have much time with each other, isn't it? Entah. So aku harap kalau tiba saat orang-orang yang aku sayang dipanggil pergi, aku takde regret apa-apa. I mean, I should have made them happy to the limit that I could possibly can.
Aku penah sembang-sembang dengan Abah pasal nak buat bisnes dobi. Itu je bisnes yang aku nampak masa depan sebab aku ada kawan yang ada bisnes ni. Cerahhhhh masa depan dia sekarang ni. And I am so much interested. But the problem is the capital lah kan. Too bad at this age, penabungan aku idak le boleh menjadik contoh pada sesapa pun. Tang tu, insof kurang. So bila sembang-sembang dengan Abah, Abah willingly nak bagi aku duit buat modal. Yelah, pinjaman lah kannn.. soft loan gitu. Dengan aku, Abah ni lemah sikit. Mungkin sebab bila aku pinjam duit dia and janji bila nak bayar balik, aku akan bayar balik. Atau mungkin aku anak harapan dia kot? Entah. To me sama je. Adik beradik aku yang lain ada contribution masing-masing pada family.
Anyway, semalam Abah tanya aku.. bila nak buat bisnes tu. Aiseh. Jawapan aku macam biasa, takde masa nak buat survey etc which is required for it. Abah pun soft talk lah dengan aku. Orang yang nak bagi soft loan ni soft talk dengan aku, leh? Muehehehehe.. Basically I have to find the time for it. Which is so very true. But lately ni, besides banyak benda lain yang kurang, time is one of them. Waktu ofis terhad. Despite being the head, my movement is tight. I can't go out when I want for a fear that I would be needed urgently in the office when I am away. Nak ambik cuti, aku tak leh ambik sebarang. Lebih-lebih lagi with the family problem that I am facing right now.. Tu pun satu.. moga-moga cepatlah selesai dengan selamatnya.. Amin.
Aku rasa the main thing why I am procrastinating is because there's no 'pushing factor'. Cuba kalau tengah takde keje or tengah sempit hidup, mesti pantas je aku bertindak, kan? Tulah manusia macam aku ni.. Tak reti nak menghargai kesenangan sebelum kesusahan. I should really make an appointment with my friend and go for it. Aiyo.. sapa lak aku nak trust untuk survey location nih..
Nak buat bisnes ni kena take leap of faith lah aku rasa. The urge tu takde, tapi decision must be made. I really need this business for the future lepas dah berenti keje. Kalau tak mula dari sekarang, bila lagi kan? At least if I have started something, then by the time aku retire or much earlier, it would be stabilised already, I hope. Bisnes ni pun more for the family. Untuk adik-adik aku, moga hidup diorang kurang mencabar. Kesian aku tengok diorang hidup kais pagi makan pagi kais petang lum tentu makan. Nasib dok dekat dengan parents aku. So boleh gak kais-kais kat rumah Mak. Kais-kais kat rumah Mak mesti jumpa makanan punya kan? Inshaallah masih ada rezeki di situ..
So, bila nih???
Angah
Monday, 16 April 2012
Tuesday, 10 April 2012
Menginsafi diri
Lately ni hidup aku tak berapa nak teratur. Baruuuuu je awal tahun hari tu cuba nak ngatur hidup. Lum abih satu quarter, plan terburai. And the sad thing is, it's not me who memburaikan my plan. Grrrrrr! Marah aku dengan orang itu yang mengganggu plan aku. Tapi tulah.. marah pun bukan leh buat apa pun. Benda dah jadik. Kalau dapat ku putar masa, harus ku putar telinga orang tu supaya mendengar kata. Tapi sebab benda-benda macam tu di luar kawalan aku, terpaksa pasrah. Berserahlah aku pada Allah yang mengatur hal sekalian alam. Tuuu diaaaa ayat! Ekekeke.. Tapi betullah tu. Berserah.
Hidup aku gundah gulana ni benonya. The good thing is Wan is there with me. But deep inside, I am suffering. Selagi hal ni tak settle, jiwa terus kacau. Other things in my life are put on hold because of this. Aku mohon pada Allah agar hal ni selesai segera. I need to focus on my life. Not on others. I want to be selfish but I can't. Diluah mati mak, ditelan mati bapak. Dok le benda tu tengah tekak. Lelama, sengkak tekak aku. Ekekekeke..
Manusia macam aku ni, time susah mesti ingat Allah, kan? Well, time lain pun ingat gak kat Allah.. Tapi idak le sekerap bila ditimpa kesusahan. Bila ditimpa kesusahan camni, rasa macam nak dekatttttt je kat Allah. Kalau tak, takat ingat 5 kali sehari pun payah. Itu pun leh culas. So mungkin ini balasan Allah lah kan. Atau mungkin ini bantuan Allah untuk aku menuju ke jalan Dia. Bertabahlah dengan dugaan.
Kesusahan jugak mengajar aku mencarik cara menenangkan hati. And I found it best by berzikir and berselawat. It really works. Bodoh sangat statement tu aku rasa.. I mean, as a Muslim, dah tua bangka lak tu, I SHOULD know that berzikir and berselawat work well untuk hati, kan? But nooooooo.. it has to come with a test from Allah, baruuuuu nak rasa nikmat tu semua. Jahil gila aku rasa.
Tadi aku borak dengan colleague about hidup and mati. And it came to me that aku ni benonya dalam perjalanan menuju ke tempat yang abadi. Aku ni dalam perjalanan untuk berjumpa Allah. Bila tarikh perjumpaan tu, nobody knows. Kalau tarikh itu dah dekat beno, memang fail le aku ni. Like fail to the deepest end gitu. Nauzubillah!! Allah... bilalahhhh aku ni nak betul-betul boleh keep in my head that this life is just temporary and akhirat itu abadi ek?
Yesterday, aku tengok-tengok kain-kain yang aku dah beli berbulan dulu. Remember I shopped in Jakel? Remember aku ada beli kain-kain batik? Ehem. Aku suka tengok kain-kain yang aku beli. Kira perangai bangang aku gak tu lah. Belek-belek, pastu happy tak tentu pasal. Sambil belek tu, tetiba it came across my head that benda-benda tu sungguh duniawi. Aiseh. And I am soooo happy ada benda-benda duniawi gitu. Kata orang, selagi kita suka dengan benda-benda duniawi, selagi tulah takkan cukup. It's like minum air laut. Lagi minum, lagi dahaga. And bila dah leka dengan dunia, harus kurang dengan akhirat kan? At least for me lah. Untuk orang lain, mungkin orang lain pandai balance kan dunia dan akhirat. I told Wan about it, and Wan pun terdiam. Probably dia pun rasa sama? Entah.
Anyway, aku perlu lebih bersyukur pada Allah dengan apa yang Dia dah bagi pada aku. Aku perlu lebih ingat Dia, bukan je dikala susah. Andddddd.. aku berharap sangat Allah permudahkan dugaan yang aku lalui sekarang ni dan moga doa aku, harapan aku dimakbulkan Allah SWT... Amin.
Angah
Hidup aku gundah gulana ni benonya. The good thing is Wan is there with me. But deep inside, I am suffering. Selagi hal ni tak settle, jiwa terus kacau. Other things in my life are put on hold because of this. Aku mohon pada Allah agar hal ni selesai segera. I need to focus on my life. Not on others. I want to be selfish but I can't. Diluah mati mak, ditelan mati bapak. Dok le benda tu tengah tekak. Lelama, sengkak tekak aku. Ekekekeke..
Manusia macam aku ni, time susah mesti ingat Allah, kan? Well, time lain pun ingat gak kat Allah.. Tapi idak le sekerap bila ditimpa kesusahan. Bila ditimpa kesusahan camni, rasa macam nak dekatttttt je kat Allah. Kalau tak, takat ingat 5 kali sehari pun payah. Itu pun leh culas. So mungkin ini balasan Allah lah kan. Atau mungkin ini bantuan Allah untuk aku menuju ke jalan Dia. Bertabahlah dengan dugaan.
Kesusahan jugak mengajar aku mencarik cara menenangkan hati. And I found it best by berzikir and berselawat. It really works. Bodoh sangat statement tu aku rasa.. I mean, as a Muslim, dah tua bangka lak tu, I SHOULD know that berzikir and berselawat work well untuk hati, kan? But nooooooo.. it has to come with a test from Allah, baruuuuu nak rasa nikmat tu semua. Jahil gila aku rasa.
Tadi aku borak dengan colleague about hidup and mati. And it came to me that aku ni benonya dalam perjalanan menuju ke tempat yang abadi. Aku ni dalam perjalanan untuk berjumpa Allah. Bila tarikh perjumpaan tu, nobody knows. Kalau tarikh itu dah dekat beno, memang fail le aku ni. Like fail to the deepest end gitu. Nauzubillah!! Allah... bilalahhhh aku ni nak betul-betul boleh keep in my head that this life is just temporary and akhirat itu abadi ek?
Yesterday, aku tengok-tengok kain-kain yang aku dah beli berbulan dulu. Remember I shopped in Jakel? Remember aku ada beli kain-kain batik? Ehem. Aku suka tengok kain-kain yang aku beli. Kira perangai bangang aku gak tu lah. Belek-belek, pastu happy tak tentu pasal. Sambil belek tu, tetiba it came across my head that benda-benda tu sungguh duniawi. Aiseh. And I am soooo happy ada benda-benda duniawi gitu. Kata orang, selagi kita suka dengan benda-benda duniawi, selagi tulah takkan cukup. It's like minum air laut. Lagi minum, lagi dahaga. And bila dah leka dengan dunia, harus kurang dengan akhirat kan? At least for me lah. Untuk orang lain, mungkin orang lain pandai balance kan dunia dan akhirat. I told Wan about it, and Wan pun terdiam. Probably dia pun rasa sama? Entah.
Anyway, aku perlu lebih bersyukur pada Allah dengan apa yang Dia dah bagi pada aku. Aku perlu lebih ingat Dia, bukan je dikala susah. Andddddd.. aku berharap sangat Allah permudahkan dugaan yang aku lalui sekarang ni dan moga doa aku, harapan aku dimakbulkan Allah SWT... Amin.
Angah
Thursday, 5 April 2012
31st March 2012
31st March 2012. It was our fifth anniversary. Alhamdulillah. We have passed the first five critical years. That's what people say. To me, we have passed the 'teething' years. We have passed the years where we tiptoed around each other, to ensure that we don't step on each other's foot. It doesn't mean that we don't step on each other's foot anymore. I still get hurt. I still hurt him. For as long as we live together, we would hurt each other. And love each other. But I have learned to live with his shortcomings. I am more tolerable now about it. Makan hati still ada. But lesser. I learned to be a wife yang diredhoi suami. Redho Allah ada dalam redho suami. Redho suami, redholah Allah. So kalau nak successful in this life and hereafter, belajarlah menjadi isteri yang diredhoi suami. Nak diredhoi dengan suami, I have to redho dengan suami. Confusing? Hahahaha.. It simply means that kalau aku redho dengan suami as in not picking up on little things with him, jangan asik membantah, jangan malas nak layan suami etc., suami akan redho dengan aku. Tu je.
I feel the rahmat from Allah melimpah bila aku mula redho dengan suami, kurang carik pasal, kurang membantah. Hahahahaha.. kaki bantah maaaa.. Bukan tak boleh bantah, tapi bila pikir kata hadis Rasulullah S.A.W that I quoted on the sidebar of this blog, I would rather masuk syurga than membantah kat dunia ni. It's not easy to obey si suami. Tu pasal reward dia besar. And I only learned about it after being married. Not that I want to discourage the unmarried ladies out there from being married. Kawen bila dah sampai jodoh! Kawen tu sunnah. Nabi tak ngaku umat kalau kita menolak sunnah dia. Dah kawen, taat pada suami selagi tidak melanggar hukum Allah. Payah, tapi untung. Nabi suruh buat benda wajib je.. tak stress on benda-banda sunat pun.. then patuh pada suami.. then masuklah syurga dari mana-mana pintu yang kita mahu. As we know tidak semudah itu nak masuk syurga kan? Hence tak semudah itulah nak patuh pada seorang manusia bernama suami.
Tahun kelima is actually one of the major milestones to us. But we didn't buy each other anything pun. Ehem. Complacent maybe? Entah. Busy nak lampos dengan hal duniawi pun ye gak. I should get something for him. And we planned to have dinner with my family that night in Melaka.
We went back to Melaka with my parents, my sisters and their families. Hari Sabtu tengahari dah sampai Melaka. We were told that Emak's brother, whom we called PokDe had a stroke a few days earlier. So we planned to visit him that night after maghrib before we went for dinner. He is Emak's eldest brother, the third of seven siblings. Emak is the fifth. Unfortunately, at about 6pm that night, Emak received a call that PokDe has passed away at about 5.30pm. Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun. So with that, we had to cancel the dinner plan. This is another death yang mengajar aku jangan bertangguh bila nak buat sesuatu hatta nak melawat seseorang. You never know when is your time or the other's time, kan?
I have seen death before. My grandparents. My friends. But my mom's sibling is someone much closer in terms of the hierachy. I mean, this is my mom's brother, someone my mom grew up together. He was closed to my dad as well. They grew up in the same kampong. And my dad married his friend's sister. Something like that. Or probably my dad befriended my uncle to get close to my mom? Could be, isnt' it? He is (or was?) about my dad's age. Lagi terkesan. My cousins are our age. Lagi terkesan.
The sad thing about this death besides the lost, is that there's a family feud. It's too deep to share. I just hope that all of the are back together just like before.
Al-Fatihah untuk PokDe.
Angah
I feel the rahmat from Allah melimpah bila aku mula redho dengan suami, kurang carik pasal, kurang membantah. Hahahahaha.. kaki bantah maaaa.. Bukan tak boleh bantah, tapi bila pikir kata hadis Rasulullah S.A.W that I quoted on the sidebar of this blog, I would rather masuk syurga than membantah kat dunia ni. It's not easy to obey si suami. Tu pasal reward dia besar. And I only learned about it after being married. Not that I want to discourage the unmarried ladies out there from being married. Kawen bila dah sampai jodoh! Kawen tu sunnah. Nabi tak ngaku umat kalau kita menolak sunnah dia. Dah kawen, taat pada suami selagi tidak melanggar hukum Allah. Payah, tapi untung. Nabi suruh buat benda wajib je.. tak stress on benda-banda sunat pun.. then patuh pada suami.. then masuklah syurga dari mana-mana pintu yang kita mahu. As we know tidak semudah itu nak masuk syurga kan? Hence tak semudah itulah nak patuh pada seorang manusia bernama suami.
Tahun kelima is actually one of the major milestones to us. But we didn't buy each other anything pun. Ehem. Complacent maybe? Entah. Busy nak lampos dengan hal duniawi pun ye gak. I should get something for him. And we planned to have dinner with my family that night in Melaka.
We went back to Melaka with my parents, my sisters and their families. Hari Sabtu tengahari dah sampai Melaka. We were told that Emak's brother, whom we called PokDe had a stroke a few days earlier. So we planned to visit him that night after maghrib before we went for dinner. He is Emak's eldest brother, the third of seven siblings. Emak is the fifth. Unfortunately, at about 6pm that night, Emak received a call that PokDe has passed away at about 5.30pm. Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun. So with that, we had to cancel the dinner plan. This is another death yang mengajar aku jangan bertangguh bila nak buat sesuatu hatta nak melawat seseorang. You never know when is your time or the other's time, kan?
I have seen death before. My grandparents. My friends. But my mom's sibling is someone much closer in terms of the hierachy. I mean, this is my mom's brother, someone my mom grew up together. He was closed to my dad as well. They grew up in the same kampong. And my dad married his friend's sister. Something like that. Or probably my dad befriended my uncle to get close to my mom? Could be, isnt' it? He is (or was?) about my dad's age. Lagi terkesan. My cousins are our age. Lagi terkesan.
The sad thing about this death besides the lost, is that there's a family feud. It's too deep to share. I just hope that all of the are back together just like before.
Al-Fatihah untuk PokDe.
Angah
Wednesday, 28 March 2012
The office
This is something that I have written about a month or so back. But due to the nature of the situation at that time, I can't share it here although I am dying to write... So here goes...
Last few weeks my bigger boss asked me if I want to fill up the position that is going to be vacated by my colleague in the next month or so. My colleague is my current boss whom I report to. The moment he asked me that question, my straight-away answer was ‘no’.
The reason for that is that I am quite comfortable in my current position. It’s my comfort zone. I have my subordinates who are capable of carrying out the necessary tasks assigned to them and I am a bit more relaxed now. There are headaches and heartaches but that come as parts and parcels of the job. If there are no headaches and heartaches, then might as well there’s no my-position, right? I am paid for that and I have accepted it. Willingly. Coupled with the new spirit that I had when I came back to the office early this month, wanting to focus more on the afterlife, the comfort zone suits me fine. I had a talk with Wan at that time and told him that I am happy with what I am doing, finally managed to bring my staff up the curve. I am probably like a mother whose children are all grown up with less growing pains issues. I even spoke to my colleague – the one that’s resigning – about my plan. Which is nothing much. I am happy where I am. No need to think about career growth anymore. And, just when I thought that I am so much settled down, my bigger boss had to pop the question to me.
Ish.
Hence the answer was ‘no’.
Last week he asked me again. This time around, I could not just say ‘no’. Well, I tried. But he came out with his reasons which made sense to my little mind. If I don’t take it now, when I am ready to take it, the position might no longer be there. So now is my chance. After a short discussion, I told him I’d think about it over the weekend.
I spoke to my current boss. I told him that I wanted to do istikharah. He said just take it.. there’s nothing to think about. Then I spoke to Wan. Wan has not much comment to what I said. I then decided to just ask Mak.
Over the weekend, I spoke to Mak and my sisters. My sisters made a remark that others are looking for promotion when I decided not to. Silly isn’t it? To a certain extend yes. Then Mak said, “kalau ada rezeki, jangan tolak”. Mothers are always the wisest person, isn’t it? How could I argue with her answer.
So today, I came to work with my decision made. I am not hoping for the big boss to pop the question again. But if he did, I came prepared. Boy he remembered and asked. And so I said ‘yes’ to him and told him that I am aware as well that it’s not a promise. It’s just that I am willing to take on that responsibility should I be offered.
There you go. I have asked Wan and Mak. And with their blessings, I leave it to Allah. Que sera sera. But deep inside, I am afraid that I am not able to do the job. I doubt my ability. Besides that, I have to dedicate more time to work. Pay comes with responsibility, right?
Whatever..
Now about a month after the piece above was written, I am already assuming a new position. The position is an 'acting' position and comes with an acting allowance. Alhamdulillah. I am happy with the acting position. At least it still gives room for both parties (me and management) to retract the position and pass it to others if need be.
I still have my previous role to carry and new role as well. At the moment it's not too much different from what I used to do. Except that now I have privy to certain things that have been kept confidential before. I don't know if it's good or bad. Honestly, as compare to other promotions that I have got, this is scary. I have never felt scared to get promoted. I was always happy to get one. But with this role, comes much bigger responsibility. Hence that scares me. When I was informed that management has agreed to my boss' suggestion, a part of me was happy and a part of me was scared. I didn't go home like a happy kid with excellent exam results. I was happy, but it was not something that I felt like celebrating about. Weird isn't it?
Now I need to look for a new staff to replace my previous position. I have a bunch of staff that's handful to handle. It's true.. managing people is not easy. Maybe it's like managing kids. No two kids are the same. Parents have what they thought is right. Kids have different thought. And I am worried if my staff talk bad about me. Not because I think that I don't deserve it. But I think because if they talk bad about me, it means that I am not a good boss. And I am not doing my job well. It's hard to be nice and yet get things move. How I wish it's so simple.
Anyway, I am not complaining. Rezeki Allah aku terima dengan redha. Kalau satu hari nanti bukan rezeki aku lagi, aku tetap redha. Semua tu dah dijanjikan Allah.
Till then.
Angah
Last few weeks my bigger boss asked me if I want to fill up the position that is going to be vacated by my colleague in the next month or so. My colleague is my current boss whom I report to. The moment he asked me that question, my straight-away answer was ‘no’.
The reason for that is that I am quite comfortable in my current position. It’s my comfort zone. I have my subordinates who are capable of carrying out the necessary tasks assigned to them and I am a bit more relaxed now. There are headaches and heartaches but that come as parts and parcels of the job. If there are no headaches and heartaches, then might as well there’s no my-position, right? I am paid for that and I have accepted it. Willingly. Coupled with the new spirit that I had when I came back to the office early this month, wanting to focus more on the afterlife, the comfort zone suits me fine. I had a talk with Wan at that time and told him that I am happy with what I am doing, finally managed to bring my staff up the curve. I am probably like a mother whose children are all grown up with less growing pains issues. I even spoke to my colleague – the one that’s resigning – about my plan. Which is nothing much. I am happy where I am. No need to think about career growth anymore. And, just when I thought that I am so much settled down, my bigger boss had to pop the question to me.
Ish.
Hence the answer was ‘no’.
Last week he asked me again. This time around, I could not just say ‘no’. Well, I tried. But he came out with his reasons which made sense to my little mind. If I don’t take it now, when I am ready to take it, the position might no longer be there. So now is my chance. After a short discussion, I told him I’d think about it over the weekend.
I spoke to my current boss. I told him that I wanted to do istikharah. He said just take it.. there’s nothing to think about. Then I spoke to Wan. Wan has not much comment to what I said. I then decided to just ask Mak.
Over the weekend, I spoke to Mak and my sisters. My sisters made a remark that others are looking for promotion when I decided not to. Silly isn’t it? To a certain extend yes. Then Mak said, “kalau ada rezeki, jangan tolak”. Mothers are always the wisest person, isn’t it? How could I argue with her answer.
So today, I came to work with my decision made. I am not hoping for the big boss to pop the question again. But if he did, I came prepared. Boy he remembered and asked. And so I said ‘yes’ to him and told him that I am aware as well that it’s not a promise. It’s just that I am willing to take on that responsibility should I be offered.
There you go. I have asked Wan and Mak. And with their blessings, I leave it to Allah. Que sera sera. But deep inside, I am afraid that I am not able to do the job. I doubt my ability. Besides that, I have to dedicate more time to work. Pay comes with responsibility, right?
Whatever..
Now about a month after the piece above was written, I am already assuming a new position. The position is an 'acting' position and comes with an acting allowance. Alhamdulillah. I am happy with the acting position. At least it still gives room for both parties (me and management) to retract the position and pass it to others if need be.
I still have my previous role to carry and new role as well. At the moment it's not too much different from what I used to do. Except that now I have privy to certain things that have been kept confidential before. I don't know if it's good or bad. Honestly, as compare to other promotions that I have got, this is scary. I have never felt scared to get promoted. I was always happy to get one. But with this role, comes much bigger responsibility. Hence that scares me. When I was informed that management has agreed to my boss' suggestion, a part of me was happy and a part of me was scared. I didn't go home like a happy kid with excellent exam results. I was happy, but it was not something that I felt like celebrating about. Weird isn't it?
Now I need to look for a new staff to replace my previous position. I have a bunch of staff that's handful to handle. It's true.. managing people is not easy. Maybe it's like managing kids. No two kids are the same. Parents have what they thought is right. Kids have different thought. And I am worried if my staff talk bad about me. Not because I think that I don't deserve it. But I think because if they talk bad about me, it means that I am not a good boss. And I am not doing my job well. It's hard to be nice and yet get things move. How I wish it's so simple.
Anyway, I am not complaining. Rezeki Allah aku terima dengan redha. Kalau satu hari nanti bukan rezeki aku lagi, aku tetap redha. Semua tu dah dijanjikan Allah.
Till then.
Angah
Monday, 12 March 2012
Yang tak boleh diucap..
It has been a week since I last updated. It has also been a week since my life turns topsy-turvy. It's not in equilibrium. The left side of the equation is not balanced with the right side of the equation. I haven't been to the gym for the week. My vitamins intake were also haywire because I don't eat and drink properly. My sleeping pattern has also been affected. And the saddest part is, the culprit was someone else. Someone who refused to use God-given brain wisely. Urgh.
Nonetheless, life goes on, right? So I am planning to go to the gym again this week. It doesn't matter that I fall into a pit. I have to pick up where I left and carry on with life. That should be the spirit.
Sakit tak tertelan
Luah juga menyakitkan
Makan dalam hati dihiris
Tenang di wajah bukan ukuran
Angah
Nonetheless, life goes on, right? So I am planning to go to the gym again this week. It doesn't matter that I fall into a pit. I have to pick up where I left and carry on with life. That should be the spirit.
Sakit tak tertelan
Luah juga menyakitkan
Makan dalam hati dihiris
Tenang di wajah bukan ukuran
Angah
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