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Today is 29th February

It's 29th February peepss!!! I just love the date. A date that comes once in 4 years. So got to write an entry to mark the date although there's nothing much to write.

Yesterday, I didn't go to the gym. Not because I don't want to, but because of logistic issue. Wan has his futsal at 9pm and he needs to use the car. I reached home dah nak pukul 7.30pm. Harus tak sempat nak rush to the gym and later to the futsal. So I decided not to go. But, it didn't mean that I didn't do anything. I did aerobics peeps ;)

I have a new aerobics CD that I got when I bought a box of Nestle Cornflakes. It came with the cereal box. It's a latin body pump CD (or something like that) and I thought of giving it a try yesterday. It's not bad actually. The moves are simple although I still miss the steps. It's a combination or salsa, rumba and chacha. Simple but I sweat a lot. Unfortunately it's only for 20 minutes. So after that, I did a bit of floor exercise - for tummy, thigh. Oklah tu. At least it's something rather than nothing. And it's good that I don't feel like dragging my feet - yet - to do all these exercises. Hopefully the momentum will continue on for long. Or even forever if possible.

Semalam sempat berangan bagai.. I know that I won't have a washboard flat kind of tummy. Never had it before and I am pessimistic about it. Same thing with lean thigh. It has got to do with the body shape as well which is determined by the genetic whatever. This, I don't make up. It's a fact. Those with pear shape, will remain pear shape. Those with apple shape, will remain apple shape. Those with hourglass shape, will remain hourglass shape. But what can be done is make the shape 'nicer' and leaner. Sooo what I berangan about last night is to go to a slimming centre, to do whatever, when I have got my existing fat trimmed down to an 'acceptable level'. Going to the slimming centre will be just a matter of getting rid the 'final' fat that's going to turn me into a swimsuit model figure.. Boleh??? Ekekekeke.. Berangan tak boleh blah, hokehhh!!!

Because of the limited time that I have to do exercise after work, I have to plan my dinner time. According to Kevin Zahri, which I believe from what he has learned and practiced, to do cardio exercise, it's good when the tummy is empty. The reason for that is when the tummy is empty, the body will burn the fat that's 'readily available'.. I can't remember the term of that fat. I know it starts with 'g'. What I mean by 'readily available' here is the fat that you just consumed, yang lum jadik lemak tepu. It's like we will use our pocket money first before we use the money in the bank. Once that has been used, barulah lemak tepu dibakar. So it's actually good to do cardio exercise in the morning lepas bangun tido. But it takes a lottttttt of motivation to do so and I am definitely not one of those who can. On the contrary, for weight training, you can't do it when your tummy is empty. Weight training needs energy. So you need to eat something like half hour or an hour - I can't remember exactly - before you do weight training. With that in mind, combining with the fact that I eat at my in laws house a couple of times a week, I need to plan my dinner time. I discussed with Wan and I told him that I might just take cereal in the office for dinner before leaving home. Tuuu diaaa dedication! Ekekekeke.. Penat wooo exercise but not doing the right thing when it comes to food.

Ok, just a little bit of info that I need to put here, as a reminder to myself and whoever that reads this blog and interested in losing weight ;)

1 gram carbo = 4 calories
1 gram protein = 4 calories
1 gram fat = 9 calories

Rule of thumb: 1 kg of body fat = 7,700 calories

*don't ask me why body fat's calories are not the same as the food we eat*

Gulp! So now we know why it takes soooooo long to lose 1 kg kan? When I fastwalk or slowjog on the treadmill for about 15 minutes, I only burn about 100 calories. Rasa macam nak mampos but that's the reality. Even if I run for 1 hour, it will only be about 400 calories. That's why, to lose weight, it has to be combined with healthy eating. It's easier to reduce calories intake rather than to lose it later.

Oh mannnn!!!!

Angah

Progress - or the lack of it

I sooo wanted to blog about something that happened at work and want to keep it private. But I can't figure out a way to do so. Soooo I wouldn't write about it. What a shame because I have already typed it in another document and I just have to post it here. Well..

So let's just talk about something else, shall we? ;)

Let's talk about my progress.. which is not much. Mueh! I have been to the gym twice now. Didn't go over the weekend because I was away. And away means that I don't bother controlling what I eat. Huhuhuh! Bother lah but difficult to control. I was at my parents' place. How lah to control kan.. But then again, I am not planning to be on a strict diet regime anyway. I want to have a healthy living as opposed to short term weight loss program. I want to have a new lifestyle - which is a healthy lifestyle. I need to exercise, and look after what I eat but not to a point where I can't eat almost everything. It's about moderation in anything I do.

On the second day at the gym, I still didn't look for the trainer. I just ran on the treadmill, did the skiing thingy, did the bicycle thingy and a bit of leg exercise. No pain on the muscles as well. But I thought, if I exercise everyday, or almost everyday, I should burn something right? As opposed to doing nothing? So theoretically, I should lose something by November, right? Hahahahah.. jauh siot target!! I remember when I worked on losing my weight in university, it took me about 7 months before I could be happy with my achievement. Consistency is the key.

So today, my plan is to do a little longer on the treadmill. Kevin Zahri mentioned in his blog that he spends about an hour in the gym because anything more than that would not have much impact on the body. So, that's my plan. And that's what I learned as well. To lose weight, exercise about 40 minutes, 5 times a week. Of course we are not talking about Biggest Loser kind of competition lah. We are talking about changing lifestyle here. I am going to apply again what I have learned before. I would need to have variance to my exercise routine. Got to do some swimming as well now that I have figured out the closest pool that I can go to *jeling Put*. Muehehehehe! It doesn't matter if tuan rumah ada ke tak.

Besides exercising, I should start eating 6 times a day. 'Eating', not 'mentedarah'. That's something that I haven't got in motion yet. I have to start stocking up my fridge with healthy food and got to bring them to work since I spend 5 days a week at work. I need to ensure I have fruits for snacking in between meals. Itu yang payah. Got to remember to eat is difficult, boleh?? It's just the same as got to remember to drink. Got to make it a habit.

Another thing that I want to do is to get my photo when I was slim and put it on my desk in the office. It's a motivation for me. Been there, got to be there again.

So there you go. The plan.

Angah

First day

Woohooo!! Finally yesterday, I went to the gym. Yes I wanted to go there since last Monday. But because I wanted to go with my friend whom I managed to persuade to sign up with me and forget the other gym that she has been to, I have got to wait until she is available. Somehow this week is bad for her. There were a lot of things that she had to do and we had been postponing our plan since Monday. And we finally did it yesterday. Fuhh!

I don't think I achieved much yesterday. I didn't even make appointment with a trainer. I got a couple of sessions with a trainer once I signed up and I should learn something from the trainer on what need to be done to achieve my goal. But I am still too intimidated with gym thingy. I really have no reason for that. There's like inferiority complex in me. As if I have never done any exercise all my life. As if I weigh 100kg. Macam saspen semacam je to ask for a trainer. Actually a trainer called me last week but because I was not sure when I wanted to go to the gym, I didn't set any apppointment with him. But after that first call, he has not called me yet. Maybe because I told him that I'll look for him on Monday early this week. Entah. I am still hoping that he'll call though. I think I can benefit a lot from a trainer - in the sense of guiding me what exercise to, the number of repetitions, the duration, intensity etc. Fuh!

And as a result of last night's exercise, badan tak sakit apa pun. Muahahahahah! Nampak sangat I haven't pushed the body, kan? If I did, I would have felt something by now. Hish. Rugi.

Hari ni pulak, my friend said that she can't make it again. Got a kenduri that she has to attend. And because of that, I am contemplating whether I should go on my own or not. I should actually, now that I know how to at least use certain equipment. Tapi tulah kan. Shy ke hape ke I don't know. Bodoh sangat. Macam budak nak masuk sekolah gitu. Some kids are brave and bulldoze everything. But me, I am the timid one.. Huhuhuuhh.. Hard to believe gitu! Hahahahaha.. If I go, and manage to brave myself, I am going to look for the trainer that called me the other day. Moga dia to somehow 'encouraging' lah kan.. Moga dia ada daya lebih nak attract aku untuk exercise and push myself to the limit.

I didn't even take my weight last night. Tak sanggup. Biar lah. I would know if I have lost weight once I lose inches on my clothes. Kalau baju seluar dah tak ketat, dah lose weight lah tu kan. By then only I would weigh. Kalau tak rasa macam discouraging sangat.

Angah

Bad habits

I like to procrastinate. Although I don’t like people to procrastinate, I am guilty of doing it myself. I normally do it to things that are tedious. Things that require a lot of my attention. It’s important but it’s not urgent. Memang akan dok celah-celah manalah keje tu nanti. If I could swipe it under the carpet, I would. But berapa banyak pun leh dok bawah karpet kan? Harus mengelembung karpet tu nanti..

Besides procrastinating, there’s another perangai of me that’s bad. I don’t like to tengok surat-surat hutang. Ekekeke.. Boleh gitu? Buat hutang takpe, tapi takmo tengok surat hutang. If you guys read shopaholic books by Sophie Kinsella, character Becky tu.. I sort of can relate to her. How she wished that the letters will eventually vanish into thin air and all the records gone magically. Hahahahah.. Bodoh, yes. But those thoughts came to my mind. Now dah takde lagi. Alhamdulillah. Syukur I now have somehow managed my debt. I am still not debt-free but it’s not as bad as before. It’s manageable.

Basically the two habits or attitude or whatever you call them, are bad. Sooner or later, those that I want to avoid would catch up with me and I have to face the music. A very badly composed music.

Anyway, yesterday evening, I got a call from Kastam. Ni hal ehwal keje lah ni. The call was picked up by my colleague because I was not at my place. When she told me Kastam called, I already knew what they want. It’s something that they have asked since last year and I have put it under the carpet. It’s in my head but I’d rather not do anything about it. Banyak benda lain have priority over that. So it’s in my head, but buried somewhere, with a hope that it just go away magically. Unfortunately it does not. Sigh. Saspen gak masa diorang call tu. Balik rumah, dok serabut risau semacam. As usual, bila dah serabut risau gitu, ingat Allah lah kannnnn.. Ingat zikir.. Ekekekeke. Dasar iman nipis.

Pagi ni, awal lagi aku dah call diorang. Dalam pada saspen, I have to get it done and over with. Zikir tak putus lah kan. Aku call, line engage. Tak lama pastu orang tu call henfon aku. Aiseh. Probably the line crossed when we tried calling each other. The conversation was very easy. Siap aku propose untuk aku hantar staf aku ke ofis Kastam and bring the document. Happy je orang Kastam tu. Easy sangat the conversation and I am so glad! Aku rasa sungguh berkat zikir lah.. Yelah, I wouldn’t know otherwise, right? But aku yakin dengan bantuan Allah.

Now that I have passed the work to my staff, aku lega gila. No, the task has not been completed yet. It’s far from being completed. But since I can share the work with others, I feel so much lighter. Idak le duduk di batu jemala patik je. Yippie! Happy ;)

Besides this apa lagi ek keje yang dok bawah karpet tu eh? Adaaaaa... Ada MOM yang dah berkurun aku tak buat. Uwaaaaa!! I just hate to do it. Tu pun nak kena pass to someone gak to do it. Basically, things that I am passing to others ni, are things that I have done singlehandedly dulu. Semua pun aku. Now, it’s good that I can pass it around. Keje manage diorang. Barulah betul, kan? Ekekekeek.. Come to think of it, there were really a lot on my plate with nobody else to fall back to. How did I manage eh?

Angah