Bad habits

I like to procrastinate. Although I don’t like people to procrastinate, I am guilty of doing it myself. I normally do it to things that are tedious. Things that require a lot of my attention. It’s important but it’s not urgent. Memang akan dok celah-celah manalah keje tu nanti. If I could swipe it under the carpet, I would. But berapa banyak pun leh dok bawah karpet kan? Harus mengelembung karpet tu nanti..

Besides procrastinating, there’s another perangai of me that’s bad. I don’t like to tengok surat-surat hutang. Ekekeke.. Boleh gitu? Buat hutang takpe, tapi takmo tengok surat hutang. If you guys read shopaholic books by Sophie Kinsella, character Becky tu.. I sort of can relate to her. How she wished that the letters will eventually vanish into thin air and all the records gone magically. Hahahahah.. Bodoh, yes. But those thoughts came to my mind. Now dah takde lagi. Alhamdulillah. Syukur I now have somehow managed my debt. I am still not debt-free but it’s not as bad as before. It’s manageable.

Basically the two habits or attitude or whatever you call them, are bad. Sooner or later, those that I want to avoid would catch up with me and I have to face the music. A very badly composed music.

Anyway, yesterday evening, I got a call from Kastam. Ni hal ehwal keje lah ni. The call was picked up by my colleague because I was not at my place. When she told me Kastam called, I already knew what they want. It’s something that they have asked since last year and I have put it under the carpet. It’s in my head but I’d rather not do anything about it. Banyak benda lain have priority over that. So it’s in my head, but buried somewhere, with a hope that it just go away magically. Unfortunately it does not. Sigh. Saspen gak masa diorang call tu. Balik rumah, dok serabut risau semacam. As usual, bila dah serabut risau gitu, ingat Allah lah kannnnn.. Ingat zikir.. Ekekekeke. Dasar iman nipis.

Pagi ni, awal lagi aku dah call diorang. Dalam pada saspen, I have to get it done and over with. Zikir tak putus lah kan. Aku call, line engage. Tak lama pastu orang tu call henfon aku. Aiseh. Probably the line crossed when we tried calling each other. The conversation was very easy. Siap aku propose untuk aku hantar staf aku ke ofis Kastam and bring the document. Happy je orang Kastam tu. Easy sangat the conversation and I am so glad! Aku rasa sungguh berkat zikir lah.. Yelah, I wouldn’t know otherwise, right? But aku yakin dengan bantuan Allah.

Now that I have passed the work to my staff, aku lega gila. No, the task has not been completed yet. It’s far from being completed. But since I can share the work with others, I feel so much lighter. Idak le duduk di batu jemala patik je. Yippie! Happy ;)

Besides this apa lagi ek keje yang dok bawah karpet tu eh? Adaaaaa... Ada MOM yang dah berkurun aku tak buat. Uwaaaaa!! I just hate to do it. Tu pun nak kena pass to someone gak to do it. Basically, things that I am passing to others ni, are things that I have done singlehandedly dulu. Semua pun aku. Now, it’s good that I can pass it around. Keje manage diorang. Barulah betul, kan? Ekekekeek.. Come to think of it, there were really a lot on my plate with nobody else to fall back to. How did I manage eh?

Angah