Officially, 10 Zulhijjah begins after Maghrib on the 5th of November. So, practically, the second half of my birthday tahun ni is on Aidiladha lah kan? ;-)
After Maghrib tadi, saat orang mula bertakbir (or rather saat tv mula show orang takbir), hati aku terasa sayu lak. Entah nape. Nak kata sebab ada kat Pilah instead of with my family, tak gak. Sayu, not to the point yang aku nak nangis. Sayu as in terasa sangat macam bilaaaaaalah aku nak dapat buat haji. I am not talking about going for umrah. I am talking about haji.
Mungkin sebab tahun ni, ada 3 orang batchmate aku masa kat sekolah dulu pegi haji. All of them are girls. And aku memang teringin nak pegi haji soon. Kalau boleh hati ni teringin nak kejar time haji jatuh towards end of the year, where dengan izin Allah, cuaca agak lebih merciful as compare to the middle of the year. Yelah, iman nipis. Aku ni tahap ngukur iman di badan sendiri nih. Kalau orang yang iman dia tebal, I am very sure they don't bother when they actually perform the haj. Unlike me.
All these while sepanjang hidup aku, aku dok ingat nak travel to all other places, but haji. Sanggup simpan duit sebab nak tengok dunia. Little did I care about my plan for haj. Hari tu baru aku terfikir.. Kalaulah dari aku mula keje dulu, aku simpan RM50 tiap bulan untuk gi haji, setahun dah ada RM600. Memang sikit. Tapi kalau dah sepuluh tahun keje, tak ke RM6,000? Kalau dah 15 tahun keje, tak ke RM9,000? It's just right untuk pegi haji, kan?? Tulah kan.. dulu tak beringat untuk saham akhirat. Saham duniaaaaa je. Now ni, dunia pun tak terkejar, akhirat apatah lagi. Tu yang sayu tu kot..
So now ni, kalau aku nak gi haji soon, kenalah jump queue and to do so, the best thing is to get a package with higher price than the normal haj package. Adeh.
Anyway, that's just my feeling about haji ni.
Doa aku di hari orang wukuf di Arafah ni, moga dengan izin Allah, aku dan Wan dapat gi haji in the near future. Amin.
Salam Aidiladha.
Angah
Saturday, 5 November 2011
It's my birthday!!
It's my birthday!! :) I have seen the world for 39 years. And at the same time, I have reduced my lifetime by 39 years.. if you want to look at it from a different perspective lah..
My achievement so far? Kalau ikut kayu penyukat dunia, tak banyak. Kalau ikut kayu penyukat akhirat lagiiiiiiiiiii jauhhhhhhhhhhhh.. Nonetheless, alhamdulillah with what Allah has given me. Ramai lagi orang yang lebih susah daripada aku kat luar sana and I should always remember to be grateful for what Allah has given me. Lahir sempurna, and until now masih sempurna. Lahir suci, and now... errr... usah le kabo ye! Muahahahah..
My wish on this day.. Moga Allah memberkati usia aku, moga aku dapat menunaikan haji secepat yang mungkin (errr.. harus lah kena lupakan London, New York, Paris segala nih!), moga aku terus menjadi isteri yang mentaati suami, moga aku rajin menunaikan kewajipan seorang Islam, moga Allah lapangkan pintu rezeki aku sekeluarga. Amin ya rabbal alamin.
Angah
My achievement so far? Kalau ikut kayu penyukat dunia, tak banyak. Kalau ikut kayu penyukat akhirat lagiiiiiiiiiii jauhhhhhhhhhhhh.. Nonetheless, alhamdulillah with what Allah has given me. Ramai lagi orang yang lebih susah daripada aku kat luar sana and I should always remember to be grateful for what Allah has given me. Lahir sempurna, and until now masih sempurna. Lahir suci, and now... errr... usah le kabo ye! Muahahahah..
My wish on this day.. Moga Allah memberkati usia aku, moga aku dapat menunaikan haji secepat yang mungkin (errr.. harus lah kena lupakan London, New York, Paris segala nih!), moga aku terus menjadi isteri yang mentaati suami, moga aku rajin menunaikan kewajipan seorang Islam, moga Allah lapangkan pintu rezeki aku sekeluarga. Amin ya rabbal alamin.
Angah
Friday, 4 November 2011
New York.. New York..
Ehem. Some of the pictures when I was in New York. New York, u olsssss...!! My hubby was there as well and the only person missing was Joe! Damn you were missed. Time and time again we wish that you were there as well. How wonderful it would have been, kan?
Angah
Derita dalam bahagia?
Bear with me, okay. I am in the mood to write. It has been ages since I poured myself out here. And I am sure u ols miss me, kan? ;)
I came across this someone's blog recently. She is in her second marriage. Prior to that, her first marriage lasted for 15 years. To me, 15 years is a damn bloody long time, don't you think? And, to be married to someone for those long years, I am sure it accounts for something. I am sure there was love. I am sure there were good times. I am damn sure of that even though I was not in the marriage. Let's face it.. otherwise, the marriage would have ended like.. only in 12 days, right? Tu baru lah leh kata takde cinta ke, tertipu ke, tak bahagia ke.. But after 15 years?
Where am I going with this ek? Actually, in the blog, she sort of saying that she had wasted 15 years of her life. In a way, the way I interpreted it, she regretted being married to the ex. Fair enough if she wants to hate him for whatever that happened that led to the divorce. But I feel like it's unfair to say that she has wasted her life. Come on lah.. takkan baru tersedar after 15 years? Unless kena ubat guna-gunalah.. Yelah, it's her life. She can feel whatever she want to feel. Who am I to say anything to begin with.
Erk.. again.. where am I going with this ek? Just to remind myself. Life has its ups and downs. When it is up, treasure it. When it is down, face it but don't dismiss the good things. It's just too easy to look at the bad side of things and forget on the good things.
Tu je lah.
Angah
I came across this someone's blog recently. She is in her second marriage. Prior to that, her first marriage lasted for 15 years. To me, 15 years is a damn bloody long time, don't you think? And, to be married to someone for those long years, I am sure it accounts for something. I am sure there was love. I am sure there were good times. I am damn sure of that even though I was not in the marriage. Let's face it.. otherwise, the marriage would have ended like.. only in 12 days, right? Tu baru lah leh kata takde cinta ke, tertipu ke, tak bahagia ke.. But after 15 years?
Where am I going with this ek? Actually, in the blog, she sort of saying that she had wasted 15 years of her life. In a way, the way I interpreted it, she regretted being married to the ex. Fair enough if she wants to hate him for whatever that happened that led to the divorce. But I feel like it's unfair to say that she has wasted her life. Come on lah.. takkan baru tersedar after 15 years? Unless kena ubat guna-gunalah.. Yelah, it's her life. She can feel whatever she want to feel. Who am I to say anything to begin with.
Erk.. again.. where am I going with this ek? Just to remind myself. Life has its ups and downs. When it is up, treasure it. When it is down, face it but don't dismiss the good things. It's just too easy to look at the bad side of things and forget on the good things.
Tu je lah.
Angah
It's all about reading
I always loveeeee books. Loveeee reading them. Errr... certain book though. Idak le suma buku aku suka baca, kan ;) And, I think it has a lot to do with the way I was brought up. The way Abah tried to inculcate the reading habit into all 5 of us. Well, unfortunately the habit only sticks with me. But hey, the success rate is already 20%, right? Oklah tu.
When we were young, Abah used to take us almost every weekend to the Perpustakaan Bimbingan Kanak-Kanak, along Jalan Tun Razak, where IJN now sits. I just love the library. I can be lost in it, so greedy and undecisive on what to read within the limited time that I had there. Later, had difficulty in choosing the books to borrow. Lucky for me, the other 4 didn't bother much about the books. They were too busy playing in the playground outside the library. Since everyone was entitled to borrow 2 books each, I had the luxury to choose most of them. Heaven gila!
Balik rumah, Emak would have tough time with me because I would then get buried in the books and didn't bother helping her with the house works. Heh! Dasar pemalas kannnn!!
All these were back then, during my pre-school era, I think. Or at least until I was in Darjah 1. After that we moved to Cheras and at that time Jalan Tun Razak macam jauh sangat dah nak pegi from Cheras as compared to from Ampang. Back then lahhh.. now semua tu tak relevent dah.
And looking back, I am glad Abah took all the time and trouble to do what he did. He is not a visionary, but at least he had that vision.
It's sad to see that my nephews and nieces don't have such habit. Asik ingat nak mainnnnnnn je 24 jam. Asal celik mata, main. Nak tutup mata pun main lagi. And because the parents don't have the habit, anak-anak pun tak boleh nak ngikut. Kids learn from what they see. Not so much from what they hear. During their development, speech understanding comes much later. They imitate what you do much earlier before they can imitate what they hear. So parents, if you want your kids to behave, you have to behave first. Ingat? Muehehehe..
Until now, kalau masuk kedai buku, I can be lost as well. Maybe not as lost as I was before but still.. deciding on which book to buy can be tough. Books are expensive here. I loveeeee the smell of books.. the smell of kedai buku. I don't know how to explain the smell, but it's just the same smell if you go to every kedai buku. Errr... kedai buku yang hapak tu tak termasuklah ye. I am talking about good kedai buku je ni. Same goes with magazine I suppose. Nampak, suma nak beli. Pastu, rasa macam rugi because I don't know what to do with the huge stack that I have at home.
So the other day, masa pegi books fair BBW kat MAEPS tu, I tell you.. Gila!!! Dahlah pegi lepas keje, and when I reached there, tolak waktu solat maghrib, dah tinggal sejam setengah je to spend dalam hall yang ada beribu buku! I tell you!! Tamakkk halobaaa melanda diri! Kata laki aku, I walked sooo fast, much faster than him. Dia kata macam aku nak gi shopping kat factory outlets lak. Hahahaha.. Well, sikit lebih kurang, dak? Dia tak tau yang I felt like running to reach the hall from the parking lot! It gave damn good deal that I just simply grabbed the books that I want without thinking much. Gila.. buku yang normally RM35 jadik RM8 je. Banyak tu diskaun! Sebab satu malam tak cukup masa, we went there 2 nights in a row. Puashati! Hahahaha.. My only regret is that I should have gone on the first day. Manalah tau kot-kot there were other books that I could have bought but dah gone by the time I went there. So next time.. got to remember that!
Now, we have a stack of books at home. Don't know where to put because my book rack is already fully occupied. Nak buang buku lama, sayang. Nak donate, don't know where to donate. And I am picky about where I want to donate the books to. I don't want to simply donate the books and then the books will be left untouched or ignored or hancur. I can't tolerate that. That's my rule on books. My books, especially the novels, are nicely wrapped. Wrapped as in wrapped with a stick-on plastic wrapper. The covers look like they are laminated. And, no one shall flip the pages to mark, or make any mark on the book. Oooooo tu pantanggggg!!! Cannotttt!!! That also, I learned from Abah. Kepantangan Abah kalau tengok kitorang conteng buku sekolah, hatta making any notes relevant to what being taught. To him, that's what note books are for. Horror tak?? Hahahaha! So, kalau Abah nak inspect buku sekolah kitorang, kenalah segera padam mana-mana yang berconteng kalau tak nak kena dengan Abah.
Books that I am reading now? I am finishing a book by Chris Manby. I just love the way she writes. Funny. Light reading. Girlish. I love chic-lit kind of books.
Errr.. above all.. Quran.. how? Baru semalam Wan cakap kat aku.. We should be reading Quran more often lah. Which is true. Oh so true. Why malas? Blame it on the setan-setan around. But more so blame it on diri sendirilah kan. Can't blame the parents or anyone else. Abah Emak rajin je baca Quran. Anak ni je malas. Alasan? Got plenty *icon setan bertanduk*.
I soooooo need to get my priority right! Sigh!
Angah
When we were young, Abah used to take us almost every weekend to the Perpustakaan Bimbingan Kanak-Kanak, along Jalan Tun Razak, where IJN now sits. I just love the library. I can be lost in it, so greedy and undecisive on what to read within the limited time that I had there. Later, had difficulty in choosing the books to borrow. Lucky for me, the other 4 didn't bother much about the books. They were too busy playing in the playground outside the library. Since everyone was entitled to borrow 2 books each, I had the luxury to choose most of them. Heaven gila!
Balik rumah, Emak would have tough time with me because I would then get buried in the books and didn't bother helping her with the house works. Heh! Dasar pemalas kannnn!!
All these were back then, during my pre-school era, I think. Or at least until I was in Darjah 1. After that we moved to Cheras and at that time Jalan Tun Razak macam jauh sangat dah nak pegi from Cheras as compared to from Ampang. Back then lahhh.. now semua tu tak relevent dah.
And looking back, I am glad Abah took all the time and trouble to do what he did. He is not a visionary, but at least he had that vision.
It's sad to see that my nephews and nieces don't have such habit. Asik ingat nak mainnnnnnn je 24 jam. Asal celik mata, main. Nak tutup mata pun main lagi. And because the parents don't have the habit, anak-anak pun tak boleh nak ngikut. Kids learn from what they see. Not so much from what they hear. During their development, speech understanding comes much later. They imitate what you do much earlier before they can imitate what they hear. So parents, if you want your kids to behave, you have to behave first. Ingat? Muehehehe..
Until now, kalau masuk kedai buku, I can be lost as well. Maybe not as lost as I was before but still.. deciding on which book to buy can be tough. Books are expensive here. I loveeeee the smell of books.. the smell of kedai buku. I don't know how to explain the smell, but it's just the same smell if you go to every kedai buku. Errr... kedai buku yang hapak tu tak termasuklah ye. I am talking about good kedai buku je ni. Same goes with magazine I suppose. Nampak, suma nak beli. Pastu, rasa macam rugi because I don't know what to do with the huge stack that I have at home.
So the other day, masa pegi books fair BBW kat MAEPS tu, I tell you.. Gila!!! Dahlah pegi lepas keje, and when I reached there, tolak waktu solat maghrib, dah tinggal sejam setengah je to spend dalam hall yang ada beribu buku! I tell you!! Tamakkk halobaaa melanda diri! Kata laki aku, I walked sooo fast, much faster than him. Dia kata macam aku nak gi shopping kat factory outlets lak. Hahahaha.. Well, sikit lebih kurang, dak? Dia tak tau yang I felt like running to reach the hall from the parking lot! It gave damn good deal that I just simply grabbed the books that I want without thinking much. Gila.. buku yang normally RM35 jadik RM8 je. Banyak tu diskaun! Sebab satu malam tak cukup masa, we went there 2 nights in a row. Puashati! Hahahaha.. My only regret is that I should have gone on the first day. Manalah tau kot-kot there were other books that I could have bought but dah gone by the time I went there. So next time.. got to remember that!
Now, we have a stack of books at home. Don't know where to put because my book rack is already fully occupied. Nak buang buku lama, sayang. Nak donate, don't know where to donate. And I am picky about where I want to donate the books to. I don't want to simply donate the books and then the books will be left untouched or ignored or hancur. I can't tolerate that. That's my rule on books. My books, especially the novels, are nicely wrapped. Wrapped as in wrapped with a stick-on plastic wrapper. The covers look like they are laminated. And, no one shall flip the pages to mark, or make any mark on the book. Oooooo tu pantanggggg!!! Cannotttt!!! That also, I learned from Abah. Kepantangan Abah kalau tengok kitorang conteng buku sekolah, hatta making any notes relevant to what being taught. To him, that's what note books are for. Horror tak?? Hahahaha! So, kalau Abah nak inspect buku sekolah kitorang, kenalah segera padam mana-mana yang berconteng kalau tak nak kena dengan Abah.
Books that I am reading now? I am finishing a book by Chris Manby. I just love the way she writes. Funny. Light reading. Girlish. I love chic-lit kind of books.
Errr.. above all.. Quran.. how? Baru semalam Wan cakap kat aku.. We should be reading Quran more often lah. Which is true. Oh so true. Why malas? Blame it on the setan-setan around. But more so blame it on diri sendirilah kan. Can't blame the parents or anyone else. Abah Emak rajin je baca Quran. Anak ni je malas. Alasan? Got plenty *icon setan bertanduk*.
I soooooo need to get my priority right! Sigh!
Angah
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