Kata orang, kalau kita mimpi gigi tercabut, maknanya ada orang yang nak meninggalkan kita. Tu kata orang. Aku tak tau betul ke tak. A few days ago, aku bermimpi gigi kacip aku bahagian bawah longgar macam nak tercabut sangat dah tapi lum tercabut lagi. Saspen sangat aku masa tu sebab aku tak nak le rongak. Aku lum sedia lagi untuk rongak gitu. Bila aku cite kan Alin, Alin saspen. Bukan pasal aku rongak, tapi the thought of losing someone. Or, someone sakit sebab gigi tu tak tercabut cuma longgar je. Alin kata, dulu masa dia mimpi gigi tercabut, and Emak pun mimpi yang sama, we lost our maternal grandfather. Tu yang Alin saspen tu. Owhhh..
Semalam lepas buka, at about 7.45pm, kawan aku La who had a bad car accident back in June and still recovering from her injury called. Aku last jumpa dia before puasa hari tu masa kenduri kat umah dia.. kenduri menyambut puasa. Since dia dah kuar hospital, aku tak visit dia frequently. She still hasn't gained the function of her hand tapi she is in much better condition now.
"Angah, bapak aku dah takde..", said La in between her sobs.
"Ha?", was my reaction macam dalam drama tv. Aku macam dengar apa dia cakap tapi macam tak leh nak comprehend. Lutut dah longgar.
"Bapak aku dah takde", she repeated.
Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun.. Betullah apa aku dengar first time tu. Apparently, the day after kenduri kat umah dia before puasa hari tu, bapak dia was hospitalised. He has diabetes tapi masuk hospital sebab kaki bengkak. After he was treated untuk kaki bengkak, badan lak naik macam rashes. Mungkin sebab allergic ubat ke apa ke tatau. Then a few days ago, suddenly his kidney failed. Then semalam, suddenly his heart failed.
According to her, bapak dia takde lah bedridden ke. Cuma lemah je. And semalam pun, dia ok je. Less than an hour before his death, dia sempat pegi toilet dulu untuk buang air. He was assisted by a male nurse sebab he was weak and kena pimpin. Tu je. After that, La's mother sempat lapkan muka bapak dia ni, bersih-bersihkan sikit kasi segar le kot. And not long after that, out of sudden, dia sesak nafas. Help came, and they did what they could. Tapi sebab masa dia dah sampai, he passed on. Sekejapan gitu. Doktor pun terkejut gitu sebab they checked on his heart earlier, and it was ok. Tulah kan. Kuasa Allah mengatasi segalanya.
Aku insaf. Kematian selalu menginsafkan aku. Dia dipanggil Allah di bulan Ramadhan. Untunglah dia kalau dia dah manfaatkan Ramadhan yang lepas-lepas. Tapi diri aku ni tatau lagi apa nak jadik. Solat selalu dilalaikan walhal itu yang akan disoal dulu lepas mati nanti. Puasa pun tatau lengkap ke tak. Adeh. Moga-moga, bila aku dipanggil pergi nanti, aku dah bersedia. Cukup bersedia.
Semalam jugak berita mengisahkan pasal ujian DNA mayat budak yang dijumpai dalam beg sukan mengconfirmkan that she is Nurin yang hilang lama tu. Sedih le aku tengok berita tu. Masa buka, aku bukak cerita dengan MIL aku. Terus tak lalu makan orang tua tu. Sian lak aku tengok. Sedih sangat sampai ilang selera makan MIL aku. Nasib baik masa tu dia dah abih makan, cuma meratah lauk and makan dessert. Kalau tak, harus aku bersalah gila. Aku ingat dia dah tau. Yelah, dia dok kat umah.. so possibility dia dah tau pasal news tu dari tv tu ada. Rupanya dia tatau lagi. Alahai.. The parents are in denial, and aku teringat kisah Along Spoon yang mati kena bunuh dulu. Parents dia in denial and kat Along tu masih hidup. As far as I can recall, takde lak cite yang Along tu dah pulang. Entah. Whatever it is, the girl is already in heaven. In a much better place now. Memang binatang sangat yang buat benda tu suma kat dia. From the people that I talked tu, suma nak dera binatang tu kalau jumpa. So you binatang out there, siaplah kau!!
And hal duniawi sikit.. Jose Morinho left Chelsea. Sob.. sob.. sob..
Al-Fatihah untuk bapak La and adik Nurin.
Angah
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