Approaching 2012..

At midnight tonight, we would bid farewell to 2011. Aku ada cakap hari tu azam aku tahun ni is tak nak berazam. Hahahaha.. Tapi for the past few days, things came to my mind. It's not so much about berazam due to tahun baru. But azam came after bonus dapat, hutang tak habis, and yet I have added a few things into my collection of things yang "tak perlu"! Duh! And so, here are the things that I thought I should learn to stick on.. and writing them here, so that I can recall the feeling I have now while writing this..

*sambil terketar menaip...*

1 - Aku berazam untuk tidak masuk Jakel lagi for 2012. Hopefully for the whole year tapi kalau leh tahan until lepas raya pun dah syukur dah. The reason being is that I have had a shopping spree in Jakel semalam. Muehehehehe.. And now mode insof. Well, when I did the purchase, I had this in mind.. so I better stick with it. I told Wan about it. Pastu Wan kata yang kitorang tak gi Ganu lagi. So got to plan to go there and beli batik. Owh? Approval to buy batik already?? Hahahaha.. Okehhhh.. so no Jakel but there's still room for batiks. I loike!

2 - Aku berazam tak nak beli handbag lagi dah. Omigod! I did a shopping spree for handbags already. No need to go to JPO. Kat KL pun cukup dah. My reason for that is to reward myself after hardwork for the year. Acceptable lah kot reason tu? Takkan tak leh? But the amount spent tu agak besar, so I should just consider that my handbag shopping is done for the year! *Unless suddenly ada good sale kat Coach or anywhere else yang buat aku tak tahan?? Oh Goddddd!! Camana ni tulis azam tapi sendiri rasa macam lum apa-apa dah nak ter-break the azam??* *And teringat lak satu beg Coach yang aku dah tengok tapi tak beli and now rasa macam nak beli??? Gawdddddd!!!!!* *Merembes airmata sambil tulis...*

3 - Aku berazam tak nak beli kasut keje lagi dah. *Merembes airmata sambil jari ketaq menaip* Nak kata certain kaler kasut takde, macam dah tak logik dah. So I should just stick to this azam! Tekad! *And terbayang kasut kat Timberland hari tu yang ada sale... Uwaaaaaaaaa..!!!*

4 - Aku berazam untuk tahankan diri dari masuk kedai Habib. Boleh??? Adoiiii!! I know it's an investment tapi ini investment yang boleh buat aku bankrap gak kalau asik layan, kan? Ada satu gelang yang aku dah nampak and teringin nak beli. So kalau ada pun, itu jelah satu gelang tu. Tu je!

5 - Aku berazam untuk tidak membeli apa-apa dengan zero instalment plan. Aiseh. It's a good plan for something that you really need. Tapi tulah kan.. definition of "really need" tu amat vague untuk diri aku yang lemah ni.. Hahahahaha.. So kalau aku pukul rata untuk berazam gini, mungkin it helps???

Okeh.. itu azam yang melibatkan uwang. I am a damn boros person lah. Kalaulah aku ni ikut gaya hidup Abah dengan Emak aku dulu, mungkin aku dah leh ada a good big house kat KL nih. Tapi tulah kan.. dah nak masuk 40 baru nak pikir kan? Errrr... not that tak pernah pikir before. Yelah.. back to aku insan yang lemah *insof tunduk ke lantai*

Besides those azam, a few other things came to my mind..

Dulu aku selalu plan nak kurus. Now tetiba I feel that I should change the mindset. Instead of thinking about nak kurus, I should think about nak cantik untuk suami. Maybe that helps? Lagi dah tua ni, I should plan to be vogue. Errr nak jadik vogue kena melibatkan wang kan?? Aiyoo!! How??? Hahahahaah.. This thought came to my mind when I saw a friend who lost her husband this year (husband died okay, bukan kena cerai), did some workout after the death. She looks much slender than she was when she had the husband. Maybe she is doing it to cure her sadness besides need to take care of her health so she could take care of the kids. She looks much better now. And when I saw her picture in her FB today, suddenly it crossed my mind that.. too bad the husband is no longer around to see how much she has changed and how much more beautiful she has become. So, aku berazam that I have to do something, to change the way I look (of course it's mostly related to my weight! Damn it!). Kalau laki dah takde baru nak do something about it, it's a bit too late, isn't it? So sementara ada laki ni, I should do something about it. Ini azam dari zaman Nabi Adam dulu kot.. But now since macam ada "paradigm shift" gitu of seeing the need from different perspective, maybe something will turn out good.

Okay dah kot? Yang lain-lain tu tak perlulah nak tulis. It should be in my blood by now. Sepatutnya lahhhhhhhh.. Urgh!

Now that I have them written, I think I am off on a good start. We'll see.

Happy New Year peeps!

Angah